Yes, being stuck at home and not being able to see my friends really sucks... For UChicago students, this period of time (four weeks of no classes, jobs, and extracurriculars) is extremely tedious. But I realized, after multiple cycles of moping, fighting with my parents, gaining pounds and losing pounds, fighting with my parents, reading my horoscope, and pacing back and forth, quarantine is a blessing in disguise! Apart from slowing the spread of the virus, it slows life down and grants us the gift of time.
through this self-quarantine, I have:
- read Stacy London's The Truth About Style, Perfume, the Alchemy of Scent, Jordan Peterson's 12 Rules for Life
- walked 10,000+ steps a day
- ran a mile in rainboots in the rain
- improved flexibility- back bridges and splits
- binged The Good Place, Grey's Anatomy, Parks and Rec, and New Girl
- watched Yes Man, The Ring, Goodfellas
- ordered a bright blue penny board with pink wheels to zoom down the street
- Jazzercise!
- lost at every game I play of Dominion Online
- listened to Toro y Moi, American Ragtime, and funky new playlists
- admired the good old 1997 monte carlo or Acura Legend
- dabbled in parkour on the outdoor nature playground
- assembled a lookbook of new fashion
- listened to the Quran
- embodied sylvia plaths poetry
I keep feeling like I'm drinking espresso on an empty stomach: brief clarity leading to perhaps transcendental creativity, but at the same time the bitter come down that reminds you the jitterness is of your own doing. Tough times man. Cya on the other side.
My Tips for Studying Abroad (& specifically in Morocco!)
1) DO SOMETHING NEW EVERY WEEK!
Take advantage of every day that you are there. You do not have to fill each days with museums or excursions, but don’t waste your time in Morocco. This could be as simple as taking a new route to class every day or trying a different cuisine for lunch. As a personal example, for the first few days after classes, I would head to the Starbucks across the street to get work done. While the Starbucks had incredibly fast and reliable wifi, I decided to local cafes or study spaces instead. For instance, my friend and I would head to a new cafe to study and try a new dessert or food every afternoon. Often after finishing our readings, we would explore the neighborhood that we were in.some ideas:
- explore the city alone!
- see different neighborhoods
- practice haggling in the souks
- visit museums and learn about niche topics
- listen to local music or dance performances
- talk to locals
2) KEEP A JOURNAL
Everything may seem so vibrant to you while you are there, but it can be difficult to remember all the little memories years (or even days, if you are a pro at memory erasure) later that brought you joy or frustration or anything in between. I kept a travel journal in which I made a 7-minute drawing or watercolor painting of a key moment from the day. Journaling is a great way to digest the experiences and situations unfolding around you.
3) LEARN THE LANGUAGE!
Don’t avoid speaking to people just because you don’t speak Arabic well! Learning the language is something that complemented my study abroad experience extensively. l Honestly, I had no idea that Arabic was read from right to left before classes with Ustad Abdullah (bless him). I’m quite amazed that I’ve learned the entire alphabet, from being able to sound out words to being able to read and write sentences. It was like being in kindergarten again, and it was the most joyful kind of learning! Speaking schwia (a little) Arabic takes you so far in Morocco. When street vendors or random people that I run into find out that I’m learning Arabic, they break out into the hugest smiles and it’s so easy to make friends and to learn about their lives!
Here are some relevant phrases:
> Salaam Alykum: the pure classic, it means peace be upon you!
> Labas?: how are you?
> Shwia: A little
> Inshallah: God willing
> Waaw!: wow
> Mgdega dega mra mra, Darija: I get tired from time to time
> Al Hamdullilah: praise be to God
> Shukran! - Thank you
> Iyyeh or Naam: Yes
> ndank ndank: slowly or watch out (alright, you got me, this is actually in Wolof, a language spoken in Senegal. My roommate who studied in Dakar while I was in Morocco taught me this. And I had to throw this in here because it’s also a CLASSIC.)
4) STAY HEALTHY!
Believe me, it’s no fun being ill while you’re abroad, or in general. It’s important to know your limits and not become overwhelmed with it all. This means getting enough sleep, exercise, and healthy food each day.
5) TRAVEL AROUND MOROCCO
Each city in Morocco has its own unique atmosphere- Essouira, Fez, Marrakesh, Casablanca, Tangier, etc.
Week 1 of Morocco Diary Entries
Snippets of the day, first week in Morocco
January 4
Last night a group of us had dinner at a delicious tagine place, dar naji. the guy who poured the mint tea held the pot super high above his head! Afterwards, we walked to the ocean and witnessed a stunning sunset.
Last night a group of us had dinner at a delicious tagine place, dar naji. the guy who poured the mint tea held the pot super high above his head! Afterwards, we walked to the ocean and witnessed a stunning sunset.
We checked out of the hotel we stayed at the first few nights, packed luggage, and had a survival darija language class in which we learned how to hail a taxi. Then, we went on a scavenger hunt all afternoon with three language partners. We walked to the tram, by the museum and parliaments, through the souks, all the way to the ocean, went to the Kasbah of the oudayyas garden which was absolutely beautiful and teeming with cats (msh zweena), walked back to the souks to go to a traditional restaurant where we tried vegetables and chicken tagines with fries, and finally back to orientation. We met our host mother today! I was so excited but also nervous because not sure what to expect. I knew everything was going to be fine from the moment she kissed me on the cheek. We lugged all our suitcases to the taxi and went to L'ocean, where her home was. Our host mother served us mint tea, a keeka (cake), and cookies that they typically eat during Ramadan and we talked until bedtime.
January 5 -
they call normal black coffee "americanos" in rabat! even at the paris airport, they called out “americano” when they gave out my drink and i thought they gave me the wrong drink.
went to the markets again, looked at all the beautiful paintings, went to the contemporary art museum in rabat - there was this really lovely piece on the seven deadly sins but sadly we weren’t allowed to take pictures - and had some mint tea at the museum cafe- you gotta pour it up high to aerate it. then we went to carrefour to buy shampoo and used my taxi skills from class to get back home, where we ate dinner of salad and chicken. Shreya flooded the bathroom bc the bathroom shower is kind of jank. finally, i started my drawings.
January 7 -
woke up a bit late today. shreya and I gulped down our breakfast, which was a delicious omelette with cheese and spinach, crepes and a banana mix, and kawhla with milk. Also had some dates! Then, we hailed a cab from the white church. I used my taxi skills from survival darija to help get us to mcdonald’s agdal. Then, I bought a water bottle at the yellow cafe next door and went to civ. We learned a bit about islam today and to remember to contextualize historical sources. We took an hour break before our MSA class. We went to Zumba, a hip juice place where I got a jus oasis. Afterwards, we went to MSA and gave my first presentation! So scared of pronounciation haha but just GOTTA DO IT. Afterwards, I met up with my language partner, who studies math, at the cafe next door with some mint tea. I walked a bit down the street, went to the bank to negotiate my 20 dollar bill back, and took a cab home. I changed and went on a run by the ocean. I stopped by the lighthouse. This dude looking out to the ocean beckoned me and offered to take me up. I thought o shoot hes going to sell me into slavery but yolo. I followed him up the winding staircase to the very top of the lighthouse. it really was beautiful view. waves on one side, the city on the other, an entire graveyard that was enchanting in an odd kinda way. I then walked around in the kasbah of the oudayas for a bit and took photos of the cats. I went into the medina too and ran into Kate and Emma. so funny because we watched a movie at the cinema with Yzza called the LIGHTHOUSE later. very strange, very intense, i loved it though! would recommend. I walked back. it was only 20 min walk and I got to learn and see the area a bit better on foot. There were some outdoor fruit markets right outside our house. Then, I watched tv a bit over a delicious beef balls tagine dinner with bread and this amazing soup. knocked right out after, got up early to memorize BAA!
January 8 -
had an omelette, sweet porridge this morning and a sweet lemon cake that our host mother baked for us. It was delicious! then, shreya and I took a cab to amideast in agdal. Mcdonald’s agdal! Usually, we say a landmark in order to get somewhere in a cab. We learned about the emergence of islam and muhammad today in class. Then, I had the most delicious falafel sandwich at Babel with some people from the program. After, we learned some more arabic script like alif and waw. Then, Ruthie helped me replace my sim card. We went to starbucks and studied for a while. They have very high speed internet. I took a cab home alone and went running. I finished my workout at home and did abs. Then, we have POISSON! the most amazing fish tagine. there was also a lovely salad with tomatoes and bread. I ate a lemon to top it off. I am truly blessed by this lovely host mother. She also makes our bed when we are gone. i feel so spoiled honestly and kind of guilty haha. Then, I finished my readings for the day and worked on arabic and hopefully go to bed soon LMAO.
January 9 -
had an omelette and these lovely pancakes this morning. she also got us chocolate croissants so wase took ours to go because we are always in a rush in the mornings. we learned about the quran in class today. who would’ve known its so interesting! I also told maroune that HAHA looks like leaves. hopefully that’s no offensive LMAO. Kate, Allison, and Jessica and I went to Zumba. I got a papaya juice and a chicken shwarma wrap for only 2.5 us dollars. SO DELICIOUS. Food quality is A1 here honestly. Then, we had our arabic classes with Abdulla, who is such an interactive and great teacher. I’m still soooo shy it’s hard for me to say things but I feel like that is so irrational. Afterwards, I went and filled out my travel forms and worked at starbucks with emma for a little while. Now I’m going to go to the bank to get my 20 US dollars back and also run with Leela by the ocean.
January 10 -
mainly a day of travel. Tram and taxi to Sale airport. then a loooong bus ride through sharp winding roads in literally the mountains thought i we were going to go over the cliff. we stopped to eat sausage and olive pizza at a well-decorated christmas themed place by the side of the road. yummy. house is a hella MANSION- spacious and beautiful. Jacob and Noah jumped into the hella freezing pool.
January 11 -
got up early, tried to see the sunrise but missed it. a german shepherd lives outside our mansion. Ruthie and I are sharing a room. We take the van to Essaoria and go to Tara cafe. It’s a standard Moroccan breakfast with pancakes and jams and mint tea. Then, we walked around the old medina. A woman tried to sell us argan oil. Then, I tried haggling with this man for a snake box. Jacob helped me bring it from 50 to 10 dirhams. We went up and it was so windy by the sea. We went to a history museum that featured traditional outfits, musical instruments, and more parts of culture. After, we got lunch at a pretty rooftop terrace place. Had really delicious tuna and sardine / fish tartine which i mixed and matched with Lara. We walked out to the port and saw the iconic blue boats. Then we walked by the beach and tried found a cafe where the others ate crepes. I drank a huge bottle of water. We chilled by the beach waiting for the sunset. I talked to Lara for a while while Shreya, Jacob, Ruthie, and Gabby practiced tik tok videos. The sunset was so beautiful! palm trees everywhere. some man on a bike came up to me and asked me if I could breakdance because i was doing cartwheels. I did the 5 step then he one-upped me and did a huge incredible dance. AMAZING! we got dinner at sirocco. I had a fish “bowl”. olives were so good, so was the olive cream and bread. There was live music and a dude with a chill voice playing guitar and singing summertime and the living’s easy. hella vibes. We taxi’d to carrefour for breakfast. I lost my postcards about at this time, but thats ok because we rode the neon bumper cars! so much fun. Lara and I didn’t quick figure out how to be functional until after the ride. so much fun.
10 Words I Like
1) MUTALAZITE
“To separate, to withdraw one from”Mutalazites are followers of the rational school of Islamic theology, best known for rejecting the doctrine of the Koran as uncreated and co-eternal with God. They also focus on the concepts of divine justice and unity. They strongly stressed reason as the fundamental determinant of how the Koran should be interpreted.
While the Mutalazites make convincing points in theological discussion, they reduce God to a philosophical abstract. Though I am a Christian, I have occasionally doubted God’s existence when I think about suffering. However, I believe that God as a philosophical abstract is something that is wholly separate from the lived experience and that reason has its limits. This also reminds me that true knowledge can only be known by God and that our senses are so limited that we do not even know what we do not know. Indeed, the Mutalazites worked to solve the theological problem of evil. By theistic definition, God is assigned transcendent properties such as omniscience, benevolence, and omnipotence. I sympathize with the Mutalazites that we have a capacity for reason for insight. However, we have also continuously exhibited an inability to grasp and reason through the universe. Given that there are simply things, including certain objects in the Koran, that are beyond our ability to reason as humans, and that God has been assigned transcendent properties, then couldn’t God’s reasons for permitting evil be beyond our rational capacity to understand and articulate?
2) JIHAD
“Struggle or effort”
Jihad means struggle in the path of God. In the most general sense, it means the personal struggle against one’s own shortcomings that is required for Muslims to perfect their submission. More specifically, it is battle against the enemies of Islam, regulated by the Shariah.
Jihad is significant to me and to this course because it can illustrate how people can be hurt by religion in a way that is separate from true faith and belief. For instance, in the Orlando shootings in 2016, people were attacked and killed for being gay, for violating Sharia law. These acts of violence were supposedly done in the name of God based on an ideological basis, which is not unique to Islam. People have used Christianity and countless other bases as well to justify hatred. This incident makes me not only wonder why and how violent groups or individuals arise from religions of peace and unity but also shows how the actions of the few can lead to damaging conceptions and views of religion in society, spurred on by the media. The greatest power is the power to define. These are examples of the instances that lead to intense media coverage and crisis which then define our encounter and view of Islam.
3) QADA
"Carrying out or fulfilling"
The measuring out. The Koran often states that God measures out good and mercy to test people’s faith and to allow people to prove their own nature. People who have faith in the measuring out, both the good and the evil of it, will recognize that God knows what he is doing, even if it is against their personal desires.
Qada makes me wonder about what good and evil actually means. For instance, something that could be considered evil is pain. However, pain can be seen not only as a positive feeling but a good in itself. Experiencing pain signals to us that something is wrong with our body or with the environment. In this way, it can be thought of as a good rather than an evil. This brings me back to a question about God’s nature. Why does a good God allow suffering that brings no good? And if the pain does bring a kind of good, is that good really worth the pain? I am also uneasy about the argument that first-order evils are justified by the goods that they enable. The point of a second-order good is to end some first-order evil. For example, a given act of charity aims to improve the distress of poverty. It is intrinsic to the second-order goods like charity to eliminate the evils like poverty, and thus, they aim to eliminate the conditions of their own existence. Perhaps promoting charity and creating poverty are explained by the measuring out of good and evil. Furthermore, on similar lines, if we grant that suffering an evil is engulfed by an overwhelming good of gaining further insight into the life of God, can we continue to view this terrible evil as “evil”? But again, humans often distort the way things are and often fail to acknowledge their proper places and make the correct reaction. This is important to me because it reminds me of what I do not know and that all the good and bad that occurs is a test of faith.
4) DOCTRINE OF KASB
"Action"
The Doctrine of Acquisition. A doctrine in Islam adopted by al-Ashari as a mean between predestination and free will. According to this doctrine, all actions, good and evil, are originated by God, but they are “acquired” (maksub, kasb) by humans.
I like this concept because it raises the questions: how does Islam square the issue of free will and predestination? How does this help elucidate the nature of the relationship of humans with God? The doctrine of kasb suggests moral responsibility on the part of the agent. This is a fascinating way of reconciling predestination and free will. Though it is a great responsibility, I like that we have some degree of freedom and can be held accountable for our actions.
5) SHIRK
“Share, associate.”
Shirk means associating others with God, the only unforgivable sin. It also implies following one’s own desires or anything less than the guidance of God. It consists of thinking or acting as if anything other than God shares in the attributes of God. The opposite of shirk is the tawhid; to associate others with God is to overturn what makes us human or our fundamental instincts.
This word is relevant because it is something I (and most people) struggle with all the time. An idol is something that one deems as having value and has attachment to. This can be anything from social status to a job. One challenge for me is identifying the idols in my life. Though I do not believe in multiple gods, I have numerous ways of practicing shirk, but it is arduous to genuinely think about and truly acknowledge them. A lot of the times, I go through the day without praying and set acting with God in mind aside with the mentality of “I’ll do it later!” or “I need to go to sleep or go run first.” Every day is a constant fight to follow God. This is a reminder to readjust my priorities.
6) FITRA
“Disposition, nature, instinct”
Fitra is the original human nature as created by God. Its fundamental attribute is the innate understanding of the tawhid; only God deserves worship. Fitra can be obscured by upbringing or circumstances.
The fitra is an instinctive knowledge inside every human. Fitra is an extremely relevant word that is connected to multiple concepts in Islam. For example, fitra leads the human to the conclusion that there is one God and that we should worship Him alone. In this way, we possess an innate understanding of the tawhid. Iman and Ihsan are also concepts that are encapsulated in the fitra. For instance, Iman is the natural reaction of humans to the marvels of their own existence. Iman means faith, to believe in a truth that is true. This faith demands Islam, or submission to God’s instructions, and is a form of gratitude. Going off of this, Kufr is inversely related to fitr in the sense that the opposite of faith is infidelity, or ungratefulness towards God to whom people owe their existence.
I also enjoy the idea that people are striving to head back to the essence, to return to their pure state. As time progresses from childhood, in which we were closer to the world of tawhid, we often stray from the original fitra. This is because we live in a society that cuts us off from our fundamental instincts; we are tempted by materialism and desires. This is related to the ruh being obscured and how humans begin to identify with appetites like fear and anger. To me, fitra not only demonstrates the importance of one’s environment but also inspires me to fight forgetfulness of God and to strive to grow in faith.
7) DHIKR
“Mention, to remind, to remember”
Dhikr makes possible the actualization of the fitra. In fact, the primary function of the prophets and the scriptures is reminding people of God. The natural human response is dhikr, to remember God and one’s responsibilities towards him. It entails the repetition of certain names of God or certain formulae containing God’s name, such as the first Shahada.
I find the Dhikr to be extremely relevant to Islamic society. I see small instances of Dhikr in Morocco all the time, built into the language and the day-to-day life. For instance, the language is heavily filled with Islamic phrases, such as Inshallah (God willing), Salam Alykum (Peace be upon you), and Al-Hamdullilah (Praise be to God). Moreover, the call to prayer occurs five times a day. It summons the faithful to the salat, the ritual prayer. The salat demonstrates the daily renewal of the Koran, of God, and one’s responsibilities towards him. Dhikr illustrates the power of Islam as a cultural tool of unification and providing social solidarity in society.
I additionally believe that Dhikr can come in different forms, other than repetition of names of God or through prayer. I do not pray all the time or even 5 times a day. An analogy is that this is like friendship- I do not need to talk to my friend every day in order to maintain and have a good relationship with her. I think that one can demonstrate faith through actions. For example, performing actions that one loves, such as running, journaling, painting, or playing music, are spiritual acts and also reminds and brings one closer to God.
8) ZAKAT
« Alms tax »
Zakat’s root meaning is “purity” – people purify their wealth by giving a share to God. As one of the five pillars of Islam, the Zakat requires a certain percentage of one’s acquired property or profit for the year to be paid to the needy.
First, Zakat demonstrates social relevance: it encourages helping others and depends on social interaction. It is a concrete redistribution of wealth and warns against self-importance. As we are all God’s creatures, we should treat others well. I love that this has a strong egalitarian message and is a way of bringing home the idea that all humans are fundamentally equal and that whatever differences of fortune we may enjoy are only contingent. I discover examples of this when speaking with my language partner at AmidEast. She tells me that being a true Muslim means to always share what you have with your neighbors or with others. This is what society these days needs more of.
Secondly, Zakat illustrates how Islam performs a critical role in the social system. Zakat’s primary task is the set up a right relationship with God, beginning with the individual. A healthy society can only exist if its members are healthy. It is able to reaffirm the beliefs and morals held collectively by all of the individuals in a society, providing guidelines and purpose. Zakat also indicates the flexibility of Islam. Fulfilling the duties of the Zakat is circumstantial and depends on the individual’s situation. This echoes how people need to perform the Hajj once in a lifetime but only if they have the means to do so.
9) OCCASIONALISM
Occasionalism is a theory about causation which says that created substances cannot be efficient causes of events. Instead, God is behind every causal connection and there is divine intervention at every moment in time.
Occasionalism is a fascinating concept to me, though I have typically defended causality. It implies that all events in nature are discontinuous and that the world is a domain of separate entities that are independent of each other, with no connection except the divine will. Occasionalism reminds me of Descartes’s view of time and duration. Descartes believed that concrete duration is successive by nature, with parts arranged in a fixed order regardless of motion, and that God is necessary for each moment for duration. He fills God in as the gap between abstract and actual reality. I am inspired to think about these arguments more.
Moreover, I am interested in the context that this concept arose from. The Asharites arose as a reaction against the rationalists and the scripturalists. (I can’t help but think about Aristotle’s Golden Mean in action, whether it is oscillating between asceticism and hedonism or the rationalists and scripturalists.) Occasionalism seemed to have emerged when the Asharites began to reinterpret and develop Aristotelianism, and it occurred in the context of the Asharites’ attempt to reconcile tashbih and tanzih.
10) SUFI
Sufis are followers of a branch of Islam that believes in a more mystical connection with Allah. Sufis aim to practice all 3 dimensions of Islam and truly emulate the Prophet Muhammad. They are on a journey to embody divine existence and focus upon developing interior qualities and on spirituality. They also tend to emphasize the Tashbih.
I like the word Sufi because of its emphasis on Ihsan, to worship God as though one sees Him, and the purity of intention of any religious act. Al-Basri even denigrated a religious act to be worthless if it is performed out of habit or even a sense of duty alone. Even in non-spiritual acts, this is good motivation to be present and intentional in what I am doing; I never want to be going through the motions. This highlights an interesting point about the Sharia and legal interpretation of Islam. The Sharia deals with intentions nearly exclusively based on acts. This permits room for religious façade in society. In fact, many Sufis regarded the ulama’s concern for particular behavior to be legalistic and bereft of true spirituality.
Some Sufis practice asceticism as a way to bridge the gulf between the divine and the mortal. Several Sufis sought a highly disciplined life of the spirit, shunning the trappings of wealth, which stood in stark contrast to the Umayyads. Looking back at some of my notes from high school and sophomore year of college, one of my goals on and off was to “live an ascetic lifestyle.” Some small instances of asceticism in the modern college life were drinking only water, fasting for 48 hours once a week, not watching TV, only taking cold showers, etc. This usually happened after periods of hedonistic experience and indulgence where I felt sick of that lifestyle. I can see how it can reduce one’s appetites like pride, greed, and gluttony which are obstacles to the spiritual path. It helps nurture mindfulness and encourage empathy of the hardships of others. Ultimately, I love how Sufism emphasizes transcendence and the experience of spiritual reality for which the texts were the representation.
Why Morocco?
Though it may not be in the top ten destinations to study abroad, I was drawn to the Middle Eastern Civilization program in Morocco for several reasons:
1) Architecture – Morocco’s architecture is distinctive, a unique blend of Berber, Islamic, Moorish, and French design styles. Many buildings feature great archways and beautiful domes. It is also common to see lavish gardens, courtyards, and use of geometric patterns and contrasting color. One of the main draws for me has been to see the vibrant architecture that reflects Morocco's history.
2) Learning about the Middle Eastern world – Given the altered relationship between the United States and the Arab world, it is crucial for students to pursue education opportunities in the Middle East and North Africa region. Almost every day I receive news about this region, whether it is the U.S. launching strikes against militant groups in Iraq and Syria, travel bans, shifting European sentiment toward Arabs, and more. I hope to heighten my sense and understanding of the interplay between history and contemporary international affairs in the region.
3) Improve language skills – I have been working on my French skills in my free time during fall quarter and hope to practice and further develop it in Morocco! I will also be taking Modern Standard Arabic and have been memorizing some words of Darija, the local dialect, during my free time as well.
4) Cuisine – One way to get to know a culture is through its food, and man do I want to know Moroccan culture well. Morocco's food makes it on the list of some of the world's best cuisines, and I am pretty hype to try the couscous, tagine (a slow-cooked stew that's named after the traditional clay dish it's cooked in), harira (tomato-based soup), and more!
5) Religion - As a Christian, I am fascinated with how three distinct yet related religions, Judaism, Christianity, and Islam, were forged in the context of the Middle East and how they continue to find expression and affect the daily lives of people in the region. I hope to learn more about my religion in the context and lens of Islam.
6) Homestay – Most students from UChicago who study abroad stay in dorms or apartments. However, as cultural immersion is one of my top goals, the homestay component of the Middle East Civilizations program has been a motivating force in my decision.
7) Diversity – Whether geographically or activity-wise, no other region in the world boasts such a remarkable variety of recreations and attractions. From haggling in local markets to riding camels in the Sahara desert to surfing in Essosauria, there is no shortage of amazing adventures.
8) Last but not least, Escape Chicago winter! J
Tidbits of autumn quarter
First, a few highlights:
- studying French an hour a day - my phone and computer is in french for true immersion(so is Gillian and Ellie's, as I later discovered [unplanned!]).. tres super!
- reading books! this is something I always say I’m going to do but never do, soI’m glad I was able to read more this quarter! I read Twilight of the Idols by Nietzsche andPale Fire by Nabokov. Also read half of the Brothers Karamazov
- went apple and pumpkin picking!
- got sick two times this quarter and couldn’t stop coughing.Phenadraline and mucinex dm and honey water is the holy trinity of being able to get up to go to class
- too many phone calls and sell day chats
- Ran out of contact lenses so walking around campus not being able to see anyone
- Leading small group with the best coleaders!
- “Stock market talks” with Jocelyn that morphed into tour de food of chicago,we really love the purple pig
- Senator murkowski environmental talk
- Enjoying the dining halls
- Christmas music and Kanye’s new album!
- Watching dark tv shows- i must stop
- On a caffeine cleanse - caffeine affects me so strongly if i have it after 12 pmi have insomnia all night and can’t sleep until 4 am - also i am no longer having withdrawals fromlack of kombucha
- Rediscovering my old passion and memorizing fun facts about soil science
- Destroying my bank account on food, 100% worth it
- Losing at mafia against kenna because i am a bad liar
- Bartlett runs with Jocelyn’s ID
- Running halfway to the Chriskindlmarket with Gillian
- Shinju with Gillian and Judy
- Solo skating outside as the sun sets
This quarter has been very different from all of my other quarters at UChicago in the sense that I have so much free time. I have had these strange bouts of energy that allowed me to focus super well for 7 hours straight and finish almost all my homework for the week over the weekend. Something I’ve discovered that works extremely well for me is to study less. If I study for hours and hours, I get so inefficient and my mind starts wandering or I end up watching aesthetic youtube videos about tokyo. I study and concentrate best very early in the morning and try to save mindless administrative tasks/leisure reading for later in the day.
I have also been sticking to google calendars for organization.. this is the end of using paper agendas and planners for me.
for example:
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Another goal was also to do every single reading in my classes. In my first year, I would maybe read ¾ of every reading assigned because there were so many pages to get through and my mind would wander. However, this year, it’s 8th week, and I’ve been successful so far. I definitely want to write and journal more as well. In being caught up with my day-to-day tasks, I’ve lost my grip on writing.
speaking of writing, here's a few excerpts from my online journal from the quarter (lmk if you ever want to subscribe bc ill send you these through fb messenger every night though im not sure why you'd want to suffer that.. I think it's sooo interesting what people do all day long) -
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11/18/2019 - pulled an all nighter because of the taro bubble tea. Then I went to Ethics of Immigration class, didn’t participate, interviewed for an RA position that I really don’t want to do because it is copy and pasting LinkedIns, and to my classes. Then, Jocelyn the Angel swiped me into Bartlett because it’s eighth week and she has 45 swipes left. We talked a bit about Hong Kong. Then, Kyle came and I talked to him! He just came back from a date. I tried to ask Kyle who his science friends were. I small group prepped at Pret with Moses and Nadiah. Then, I went to Ratner and ran two miles instead of working on App Development.
11/24/2019- felt kinda upset so i took the cta to see the warhol exhibit alone.
12/2/2019 - yesterday was incredible. I went over to Nadiah’s, had chipotle, and wrote christmas cards with An and Moses. today, I boiled two eggs, didn’t eat them and ate yogurt instead, went to my ethics class without saying a word (honestly rip my participation) and then went ice skating on the midway! I feel so alive again. It was freezing because I took off my jacket and even though I messed up a lot of spins it was so much fun. I really missed skating. I quickly finished my homework in Harper after.
i'm tired now. merci beaucoup for reading!
11/19/2019 - I forced myself up and went to Baker breakfast with Jocelyn! The omelette was so good. I also am in love with their perfectly seasoned potatoes. Then, I sprinted to work and talked to Simatul and Cathy. Cathy helped me stab balloons with scissors. I jumped on them and they still didn’t pop. The Wonders of Pressure and Volume in action. I attended online office hours with Jelani for the Photogram GUI and then walked to Ex Libris to ask Amy questions on Kant, time, and punishment. After that, Kathryn walked us through structured products and CLOs at Smart Woman Securities. I walked home, ate cereal and yogurt, and went to Ratner to run two miles once again instead of working on App Development and my Kant exam.
11/24/2019- felt kinda upset so i took the cta to see the warhol exhibit alone.
12/2/2019 - yesterday was incredible. I went over to Nadiah’s, had chipotle, and wrote christmas cards with An and Moses. today, I boiled two eggs, didn’t eat them and ate yogurt instead, went to my ethics class without saying a word (honestly rip my participation) and then went ice skating on the midway! I feel so alive again. It was freezing because I took off my jacket and even though I messed up a lot of spins it was so much fun. I really missed skating. I quickly finished my homework in Harper after.
i'm tired now. merci beaucoup for reading!
Poland 2019 Reflection
Poland's deep history shows through in everyday life
In Krakow, we went on a free walking tour! We saw the medieval town square in the old town, Rynek Główny. It holds the famous Cloth Hall, St. Mary's Basilica, and Church of St. Wojciech. There were so many items on sale in the bustling cloth hall! My American consumerism tendencies kicked in and I bought a doll keychain and Amber ring, since so much amber comes from the Baltic region. There were so many street performers and cafes packed with people enjoying drinks.
Potato pancakes and venison and an impressive craft beer
the best ice cream of my life
I had at least 20 ice cream cones when I was in Poland - I still get withdrawals from the LODY
Wandering around Kazimierz
Kazimierz is Krakow’s Old Jewish Quarter. The neighborhood was mostly destroyed during the Second World War. Today, the streets are covered in art and its streets are lined with bars, restaurants, galleries, and boutique shops.
Krakow’s crowning jewel is Wawel Castle, which for centuries, was the residence of the kings of Poland. This is one of the largest castles in Poland (though not quite as large as Malbork Castle, which takes the title of largest castle in the world by land area!), and it’s hard to miss given its size.
Walking the Royal Route, which was the historic coronation path of Polish kings. The route starts in the north end of the Old Town at St. Florian’s Church, goes past the Barbican and through St. Florian’s Gate, straight down Florianska, past the Main Square and St. Mary’s Basilica, down Grodzka, and up Wawel Castle
Wieliczka Salt Mine
The Wieliczka Salt Mine tour began by descending flight after flight of stairs, 800 steps below the ground to a depth of 135 meters. Then, we were led through a 3 kilometer maze of cool tunnels, seeing saline lakes, timber constructions, and learning about the history and various stories about the mine along the way. The rock salt was naturally in varying shades of grey, though the purest salt was white and crystalline. The tour ended at a magnificent underground salt cathedral, where dozens of statues, artwork, and chandeliers were carved out of salt.
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The Dollhouse Museum in Warsaw
MUZEUM DOMKÓW DLA LALEK
I stumbled upon this museum by a lucky accident. Located in the city center in the Palace of Culture and Science, it is an enchanting collection of over 130 tiny houses, shops, and rooms for dolls, tiny snapshots of cultural and historical reality. A doorman welcomed me into this museum through a small dollhouse door. It was like walking into a fairytale. I was stunned by the level of artistry and intricate detail behind the creation of these mini worlds. Some were handmade by parents and others by skilled craftsmen or mass-produced by toy factories. I observed a collection of tiny Polish post offices, schoolhouses, a butcher's stall, hospitals equipped with minuscule operation tools, and regular houses with everything you would find in your own home, but smaller. These displays came from all over Europe and represented life in various countries and times, including the Communist era. In a small wing to the side, there was a collection full of religious houses from southern Europe. These toys were meant to accustom children to church rituals while playing in hopes of kindling a stronger connection with God. I also absolutely loved the wing of the legends and myths of Warsaw, from models of the Basilisk's lair, the mermaid of Warsaw, and the Wawel Dragon's Den. This is a mysterious and enchanting place to go to for both young and old.
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Teatro Cubano Warsaw
The Royal Route, Warsaw
We saw the Royal Castle, King Sigismund's Column, St. Anne's Church, Chopin Point, Copernicus Monument, St. Alexander's Church, and Lazienki Park. Back in the Second World War, Warsaw's Old Town was bombed during the German Invasion of Poland in 1939. The Old Town was an incredible collection of buildings that showcased the city's history, with hints of Gothic, Renaissance, and Baroque architecture. During 1944, the Polish resistance fought against Nazi occupiers in the Warsaw Uprising. In retaliation, the Nazis stormed through Old Town, burning buildings with flamethrowers and systematically destroyed buildings for months, in attempts not to only destroy the physical city but also Polish culture, history, and identity. The battle of 1944 left almost nothing of the old Warsaw. The fate of Warsaw reduced to rubble epitomizes the disaster of World War II. Sadly, Germany's eventual defeat in the war did not mark the Poles' liberation but another occupation by the Soviet communists.The city was meticulously reconstructed almost identically to how it had been previously and overall became a symbol of national pride.
